I did it.
I had to.
I sent an email last weekend regretfully stating that Stephen and I would be unable to attend the upcoming Project Gideon conference in Dallas in February 2015.
It was disappointing, to say the least, though we simply had to cancel the trip and attendance.
We do not have a choice.
This year, we bought a house--our first house and nothing short of a miracle in and of itself!--and I bought a car when my old one literally stopped running. Our budget is very tight right now, and there is no extra room to budget to attend the conference this year.
Yes, it's disappointing, but I know that this is what we need to do right now.
I will say this: "Beyond Project Gideon" is about taking what we have learned from this conference and going forward with it--becoming the best God has called us to be AND the best version of us that we can be! And this is precisely what I will be contemplating this coming year.
I want to make God proud. God led me to this conference four years ago, and Stephen and I have been challenged, inspired, and imparted vision like never before because of our participation in this conference. It is up to us now to USE what God gave us, to put legs to it, and see that The Lord gets glory from it.
But I want to make Bishop Jakes proud, too. I want him to know that the time and energy he put into us was worthy of a God-sized harvest. I really do believe that "anything is possible with God" and that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." And I know that we attended this conference for three years for a REASON.
So, that's my job now.
To figure out THE REASON.
I may not be going to the conference this year, but I must be proactive with what I have already been given. It's not over for me.
What have I learned that I am to take with me to the next level?
What steps do I need to take to get to that next level?
What skills do I already have that will help me get to the next level?
That level--where and what is it?
How and When can I unlock the DESTINY that is God-given and uniquely mine?
No, it is not over for me.
It's time to put on my Big Girl Panties and move forward.
It's not a surprise to God that we aren't able to go this year. He knew the paths our lives would take. So, we must have everything we need to accomplish our destinies, right? Somewhere, locked within me, is the DESTINY He has created for me.
Now I must pray for that VISION TO BE REVEALED to me.
Amen.
